bob sykora
Self Portrait as Utopian
When I’m truly beautiful
I’ll believe anything. The great
trundle of history eventually
gallops in the right direction,
doesn’t it? In a raving field
of books, a great landscape
of wishes, sun bleached dry
pages flailing and my whole
body elated. The room of myself
all waxy red wires, stringy
remains of my organs left
burning through the night. I keep
believing, even as the tides
turn back on me. Salt water
spikes my nostrils, spackles
my throat. The whole field
is drenched now. And the sun
looks so tired, limp yellow
bulb, dangling there, chord
exposed, so close to the water.
I still clutch the sacred
scribbles long after the pages
wash out, the words marred
by holes. I look for the sun
through a tear in the page,
pretend there’s an eclipse.
I pretend, like any old thing,
it’s a sign.
Bob Sykora is the author of the chapbook I Was Talking About Love–You Are Talking About Geography (Nostrovia! 2016). A recent graduate of the UMass Boston MFA program, he serves as a poetry reader for Split Lip Mag. He can be found online at bobsykora.tumblr.com and @Bob_Sykora_.